There are a few places I would live, but never visited. One of the places I would live is Fruitland, Idaho. I want to live there strictly based on having an internet friend and texting buddy for the past 7 years who lives there. She is an awesome person, she knows me quite well and we been there for each other emotionally over the past 7 years. We never met, or talked on the phone. I has strictly been text messages or social media. I was there for her to talk to when she attempted suicide. I am glad she talked to me and did what I said for her to do. I am proud to call her my friend and would love to live near her.
Another place I would love to live but never visited is Hell, Michigan. I had a fascination with that place since I was a kid. I can still remember the day I found out that there was a town called Hell. It was during the winter, I was living in Reading, Pa with my dad. The newspaper came that day and a story on the front page caught my eye. I believe I was 14 or 15. The article in the paper was saying how parents have to watch saying "When Hell freezes over" to their kids when they ask for something they don't want them to have. It went on to explain how a little girl asked her mom for a pony. She told her daughter she can have on when hell freezes over. That night when the little girl went to bed it started to snow. She woke up the next morning snow covered the ground and it was below freezing. The little girl calmly asked her mom " can I have my pony now" then the article revealed they lived in Hell....Michigan. Just the name of the town has me wanting to live there I am drawn to weird and unusual things and Hell, Michigan is one of those things. I am going to be moving to Michigan soon but sad to say it won't be to Hell.
Another place I would like to live and never visited is anywhere in the U.K. I hear so many stories about the place and what fascinates me the most is the ghost stories and creepy places I hear about,
I hope you enjoyed this rambling for today's challenge. Tomorrow is about "Someone who fascinates me and why"
Have a great day!
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Rambling from the darkest corners of my mind,and strange conversations with my demons and skeletons in my closet. Buckle up and keep your hands in the car this journey to my darkness is full of monsters, and horrors most people refuse to see even though it's all around you everyday. Welcome to my Nightmares!
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Sunday, October 25, 2015
Friday, October 23, 2015
Day 3 : First love and first kiss
Today's challenge is to write about my first love and first kiss ; if different , discuss both. For me my first kiss and first love are separate. they actually happened many years apart and in different states.
My first Kiss:
As a teenager I was what you would call a tomboy. I was the son my brother never was. I helped my dad work on the cars, re-shingle the roof. put up paneling in the attic, things like that. My brother was slightly disturbed though no one in the family but me noticed, but that is a whole other story. Anyway I always considered myself "one of the guys" I wasn't interested in dating or even thought of guys in a romantic way when I was a teenager. My dad even thought I was a lesbian because I wasn't dating anyone. He even had the nerve to tell me to have sex with a boy when I was sixteen because he was worried about me. Anyway back to the first kiss, while I was hanging out with my male friends and few females I knew we were drinking and playing a game of truth & dare. Every time I had to pick truth or dare they kept asking very personal questions about my messed up life I really didn't want to answer so I finally picked a dare. Now you are probably wondering what a game of truth or dare has to do with a first kiss, it has everything to do with it. The game is how the kiss even happened. The time I picked dare I was dared to kiss a real good friend of mine named J.B. he was the sweetest kid I met. He always stood up for me even when I didn't want or expect someone to. He was however a couple years younger than me. I didn't want to do the dare but they told me it was that or do truth. I didn't want to keep answering questions about my mom so I finally said "OK come on let's get this over with" my first kiss was a quick peck on the lips, but it ruined that friendship. He liked me and I didn't like him like that so we just stopped hanging out together. As the years went on if we ran into each other we would just say hi and keep walking. I miss him as a friend.
My first Love:
I had my first boyfriend when I was 18 and I was with him for 3 years and no he wasn't my first love. I just wanted to express the age of my first relationship to help explain about my first love. After a 3 year relationship, a 1 year marriage, a 6 year relationship and a very short abusive relationship, with a few years of being single between each relationship I moved from Pennsylvania to Louisiana.
Once I was in Louisiana I met yet another man that wasn't good for me but I felt so unloved and unwanted when he gave me attention I liked the attention he gave me at first. of course as in all abusive relationships the good doesn't last. That relationship didn't last long thanks to Hurricane Katrina. I lost my home at that point and I relocated to Shreveport from New Orleans. I started over once again. I got a job at Taco Bell, rented nice house not far from work and life was good. Then one day while I was at work I was running the register that night. Not long before the dining area was supposed to close in walk 3 people to get some food. It was 2 guys and a girl. The girl sits down and the two guys come to the register to order. The older of the two was looking at his phone and sending a text. the younger one, which I found out later was the older one's brother, order the food. he order the 10 taco combo, He told me they wanted 5 hard and 5 soft. He asked his brother, who I found out he name was Nick, if he wanted soft. Nick looks up, looks at me and says, "I like it hard". I was having a bad day and that made my night., I started laughing with what he said than confirmed they wanted 10 hard shelled tacos and 2 burritos.
When their food is ready the sit down and eat. Nick keeps staring at me as I was working. I didn't think anything of it because I thought no one would ever be interested in me. I cleaned most of the lobby while they ate and took orders as people came in with take out orders. I go to clean the bathroom as part of my job, just than the younger one, Daniel comes up to me and asks me if he can borrow my cell phone to call his mom. I had, and still do, trust issues so I said i saw the other one using a phone, That is when I found out they were brothers and Daniel said the phone was out of minutes. So I let him use the phone and I went into the bathroom to clean it thinking I just lost my phone. When I am done cleaning the bathroom, Nick is standing outside the door with my phone in his hand. He asked me when I got done with work. I told him I got done at 10pm which was 15 minutes away. he said they were going home and he would be there for 10 for me to call him , he had already put his number in my phone. I said "OK" but had no intentions of calling him because I honestly didn't think he liked me. I didn't think there was any way for someone as nice as he seemed to like a screw up like me. Ten O'clock comes and I am still working finishing up the dishes the manager asked me to do. I get a phone call at 10:10 pm just as I clock out, it was Nick.
Nick asked why I didn't call him at 10 and I told him I just clocked out. We talked for four hours that night. We talked everyday for 2 weeks before I actually agreed to go out with him. We spent so much time together it was awesome. We were together for 4 months before I found out I was pregnant. I found out on Oct 30, 2005. He was at a Halloween party with his brother and staying at his mom's that night so I called him and told him I needed to talk to him. He said "Don't tell me your pregnant too". I was shocked by his reply but still asked what he meant by "too". That is when I found out that his ex said she was pregnant by him from the times he went over to see his daughter. It turned out she was pregnant but not by him. He told me that we weren't ready for a baby for me to get an abortion and we can try later. I told him "I'm not getting an abortion I will have this baby with or without you but I prefer with you". We were still together and a few days later after dealing with the ex he started showing excitement for our baby. He was doing work at his mom's house and with his dad so he was staying at his mom's for a few days. We talked on the phone every night until I fell asleep. My work schedule changed I was now going to work at 6 am. On November 4th at 11 p, he called me. We talked until 1 am the morning of the 5th. He told me he would call me when he woke up and if i couldn't answer he would leave a message because he knew I would be working.
The day goes by and it was getting close to the end of my shift and still no phone call. I just figured he was busy. Laura the girl that was with Nick and Daniel the first day I met them was now working at Taco Bell also. She came in early for her shift and asked me for my phone. I asked "why?" She told me in an angry tone " Because he always answers the phone when you call for some reason" so I gave he my phone to call him. She called and got no answer. She looked worried so I asked her what was going on. That is when I realized I really didn't want to ever live without him, but there was a good possibility I just might. Laura told me " As I was coming to work I passed by the road his house is on and there was a lot of smoke and fire trucks. I am trying to find out what happened but no one is answering the phone." She told the manger she wanted to go home and check on her brother Nick. She told me she would call me when she found out what was going on. I thanked her. The manager asked me if I would stay until she came back, I said I would. He told me I could keep my phone on me and when it rang I could answer it. About 30 minutes later I get a call from Laura and it was the worst call I think I ever got. She was crying so hard I couldn't make out what she was saying. I told her I wish I could have been there with her and she gets angry then yells, "Why? He's dead!" I was in the back of Taco Bell when I took the call and I just screamed "NO!" I could be heard clearly in the dining room area. The manager runs back to see what was wrong. He takes my phone as I sink to my knees and rock back and forth saying softly "No, not Nick". November 5, 2005 I lost my first love. Honestly what kept me from sinking into depression real bad after the news was the fact that I was pregnant with our baby. A piece of him continued to live on and helped me continue to live.
Writing my first love was something that was hard for me. I don't talk about it. I lost him to a house fire. His mother also passed away in the fire that day. They were the only two at his mom's house when the fire started. A gas propane tank blew.
R.I.P
Nicholas W. Munds
11/24/83-11/5/05
Related posts:
Day 1
Day 2
My first Kiss:
As a teenager I was what you would call a tomboy. I was the son my brother never was. I helped my dad work on the cars, re-shingle the roof. put up paneling in the attic, things like that. My brother was slightly disturbed though no one in the family but me noticed, but that is a whole other story. Anyway I always considered myself "one of the guys" I wasn't interested in dating or even thought of guys in a romantic way when I was a teenager. My dad even thought I was a lesbian because I wasn't dating anyone. He even had the nerve to tell me to have sex with a boy when I was sixteen because he was worried about me. Anyway back to the first kiss, while I was hanging out with my male friends and few females I knew we were drinking and playing a game of truth & dare. Every time I had to pick truth or dare they kept asking very personal questions about my messed up life I really didn't want to answer so I finally picked a dare. Now you are probably wondering what a game of truth or dare has to do with a first kiss, it has everything to do with it. The game is how the kiss even happened. The time I picked dare I was dared to kiss a real good friend of mine named J.B. he was the sweetest kid I met. He always stood up for me even when I didn't want or expect someone to. He was however a couple years younger than me. I didn't want to do the dare but they told me it was that or do truth. I didn't want to keep answering questions about my mom so I finally said "OK come on let's get this over with" my first kiss was a quick peck on the lips, but it ruined that friendship. He liked me and I didn't like him like that so we just stopped hanging out together. As the years went on if we ran into each other we would just say hi and keep walking. I miss him as a friend.
My first Love:
I had my first boyfriend when I was 18 and I was with him for 3 years and no he wasn't my first love. I just wanted to express the age of my first relationship to help explain about my first love. After a 3 year relationship, a 1 year marriage, a 6 year relationship and a very short abusive relationship, with a few years of being single between each relationship I moved from Pennsylvania to Louisiana.
Once I was in Louisiana I met yet another man that wasn't good for me but I felt so unloved and unwanted when he gave me attention I liked the attention he gave me at first. of course as in all abusive relationships the good doesn't last. That relationship didn't last long thanks to Hurricane Katrina. I lost my home at that point and I relocated to Shreveport from New Orleans. I started over once again. I got a job at Taco Bell, rented nice house not far from work and life was good. Then one day while I was at work I was running the register that night. Not long before the dining area was supposed to close in walk 3 people to get some food. It was 2 guys and a girl. The girl sits down and the two guys come to the register to order. The older of the two was looking at his phone and sending a text. the younger one, which I found out later was the older one's brother, order the food. he order the 10 taco combo, He told me they wanted 5 hard and 5 soft. He asked his brother, who I found out he name was Nick, if he wanted soft. Nick looks up, looks at me and says, "I like it hard". I was having a bad day and that made my night., I started laughing with what he said than confirmed they wanted 10 hard shelled tacos and 2 burritos.
When their food is ready the sit down and eat. Nick keeps staring at me as I was working. I didn't think anything of it because I thought no one would ever be interested in me. I cleaned most of the lobby while they ate and took orders as people came in with take out orders. I go to clean the bathroom as part of my job, just than the younger one, Daniel comes up to me and asks me if he can borrow my cell phone to call his mom. I had, and still do, trust issues so I said i saw the other one using a phone, That is when I found out they were brothers and Daniel said the phone was out of minutes. So I let him use the phone and I went into the bathroom to clean it thinking I just lost my phone. When I am done cleaning the bathroom, Nick is standing outside the door with my phone in his hand. He asked me when I got done with work. I told him I got done at 10pm which was 15 minutes away. he said they were going home and he would be there for 10 for me to call him , he had already put his number in my phone. I said "OK" but had no intentions of calling him because I honestly didn't think he liked me. I didn't think there was any way for someone as nice as he seemed to like a screw up like me. Ten O'clock comes and I am still working finishing up the dishes the manager asked me to do. I get a phone call at 10:10 pm just as I clock out, it was Nick.
Nick asked why I didn't call him at 10 and I told him I just clocked out. We talked for four hours that night. We talked everyday for 2 weeks before I actually agreed to go out with him. We spent so much time together it was awesome. We were together for 4 months before I found out I was pregnant. I found out on Oct 30, 2005. He was at a Halloween party with his brother and staying at his mom's that night so I called him and told him I needed to talk to him. He said "Don't tell me your pregnant too". I was shocked by his reply but still asked what he meant by "too". That is when I found out that his ex said she was pregnant by him from the times he went over to see his daughter. It turned out she was pregnant but not by him. He told me that we weren't ready for a baby for me to get an abortion and we can try later. I told him "I'm not getting an abortion I will have this baby with or without you but I prefer with you". We were still together and a few days later after dealing with the ex he started showing excitement for our baby. He was doing work at his mom's house and with his dad so he was staying at his mom's for a few days. We talked on the phone every night until I fell asleep. My work schedule changed I was now going to work at 6 am. On November 4th at 11 p, he called me. We talked until 1 am the morning of the 5th. He told me he would call me when he woke up and if i couldn't answer he would leave a message because he knew I would be working.
The day goes by and it was getting close to the end of my shift and still no phone call. I just figured he was busy. Laura the girl that was with Nick and Daniel the first day I met them was now working at Taco Bell also. She came in early for her shift and asked me for my phone. I asked "why?" She told me in an angry tone " Because he always answers the phone when you call for some reason" so I gave he my phone to call him. She called and got no answer. She looked worried so I asked her what was going on. That is when I realized I really didn't want to ever live without him, but there was a good possibility I just might. Laura told me " As I was coming to work I passed by the road his house is on and there was a lot of smoke and fire trucks. I am trying to find out what happened but no one is answering the phone." She told the manger she wanted to go home and check on her brother Nick. She told me she would call me when she found out what was going on. I thanked her. The manager asked me if I would stay until she came back, I said I would. He told me I could keep my phone on me and when it rang I could answer it. About 30 minutes later I get a call from Laura and it was the worst call I think I ever got. She was crying so hard I couldn't make out what she was saying. I told her I wish I could have been there with her and she gets angry then yells, "Why? He's dead!" I was in the back of Taco Bell when I took the call and I just screamed "NO!" I could be heard clearly in the dining room area. The manager runs back to see what was wrong. He takes my phone as I sink to my knees and rock back and forth saying softly "No, not Nick". November 5, 2005 I lost my first love. Honestly what kept me from sinking into depression real bad after the news was the fact that I was pregnant with our baby. A piece of him continued to live on and helped me continue to live.
Writing my first love was something that was hard for me. I don't talk about it. I lost him to a house fire. His mother also passed away in the fire that day. They were the only two at his mom's house when the fire started. A gas propane tank blew.
R.I.P
Nicholas W. Munds
11/24/83-11/5/05
Related posts:
Day 1
Day 2
Wednesday, October 21, 2015
5 problems with social media.
let me start off by saying that is blog is day 1 of a 30 day writing challenge I chose to do. Everything that is stated within this challenge are my thoughts and opinions. feel free to comment your thoughts and opinions if you like. As I do this challenge some of the things I blog about will give you a deeper idea of the person behind the blog. With that being said on with the challenge....
- One thing I think is problem with social media is that it makes it easier for people to bully other people. I can remember when your bullies were all local and usually someone you knew or at least seen. Now with social media someone in a different state that you can tell you that "your ugly" and "you should go kill yourself". When I was bullied as a kid all they did was chase me home and on occasion beat my ass. Today with the help of social media the bullies now attack with mental abuse with I feel is a lot worst than getting my ass beat by a bully.
- The second thing I think is a problem with social media kind of goes hand in hand with the first one. It has to do with people no longer have any privacy. Social media makes it easier to be found by those you don't want to be found by. I know that can cause disagreements and people saying "Don't be on social media then". The thing is a good thing about it is it helps new and upcoming authors and artists network and they can do this under a pseudonym. With people hacking social media accounts it makes keep some aspects private.
- The third thing I think is a problem with social media is that it makes people less personable. instead of picking up the phone and talking to someone or writing a snail mail letter with all your thoughts in it. People post all their drama for everyone to see and comment on. why would anyone want the whole world to know about all the "he said she said" drama in or life. or if you got "beef" with someone, Do what they used to do when I was a kid...say it to their face.
- number 4 is along the line of number 3. People perceive what others write on social media the way they want to. It seems to me lately that people make things out of nothing these days just so they have something to talk about.
- I honestly can't think of a fifth problem of social media cause I am not like a lot of people I know and on it all day. I use it mostly for business purposes and to keep in touch with some of my friends that live in other states that i can't call for one reason or another.
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